We may have parted our ways, and I know you have someone else to love, but I ask you to keep one last promise for me.

Think of me. Think of me fondly when we've said goodbye. Please promise me that you'll remember me once in awhile.

We never said our love was evergreen or as unchanging as the seas. But if you can remember, stop and think of me. Think of all the things we have shared and seen. Don't think about the things which might have been...

Think of me waking up in the morning, all silent and resigned. Imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind. Recall those days and look back on all those good old times. Think of the things that we'll never do. You know that at the end of the day, even while I may have someone else to love as well, there will never be a day when I won't think of you...

If you find that once again, you long to take your heart back and be free, if you ever find a moment, spare a thought for me. That's all I ask from you. That's all you have to promise me...

I was pleasantly given an unexpected off early this morning. With sudden free time in my hand, I headed down to Orchard for some good old Macdonald's breakfast. I managed to pull Kevin, my personal gym instructor, to join me in town. After a heart-warming Big Breakfast set, we decided to catch The Phantom of the Opera. I was rather skeptical of this film since it never did get any good reviews. However, I came out of the show a very impressed man. I fell in love with the story, the music and I felt for each and every single character in the show. I'm yet again inspired to do a musical of my own and hopefully, I can come up with an intense story, with characters that have depth in their simplicity... like those from the phantom. 


After the movie, I left Kevin and I coincidentally bumped into Edric shortly on the MRT. We decided to go for lunch together and finally ended up at the Esplanade library scouting for books on writing musicals. While I never found "Musical for dummies", I did walk out of the library with some rather useful materials. Now if only I have the discipline to sit down and start writing my musical...


It's been four days since that unpleasant news. And while I have more or less gotten over my lost love, there are still times I think back of the good old times we used to have. Now, I can only savour those sweet memories... But I'll make sure they don't keep me from moving forward into the present. One day, I'll find someone who'll sing me a love song. It'd be a duet... and we'll sing it together. I'll wait for my true love to sing this love song with me one day... And when that happens, I'll know that my true love has come...

All I Ask of you

RAOUL
No more talk
of darkness,
Forget these
wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.
Let me be
your freedom,
let daylight
dry your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you
and to guide you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me
every
waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask
of you . . .

RAOUL
Let me be
your shelter,
let me
be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are
far behind you . . .

CHRISTINE
All I want
is freedom,
a world with
no more night . . .
and you
always beside me
to hold me
and to hide me . . .

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you
from your solitude . . .
Say you need me
with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
Christine,
that's all I ask
of you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
say the word
and I will follow you . . .

BOTH
Share each day with
me, each
night, each morning . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .

RAOUL
You know I do . . .

BOTH
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . . .
Anywhere you go
let me go too . . .
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . .

CHRISTINE
I must go -
they'll wonder where I am . . .
wait for me, Raoul!

RAOUL
Christine, I love you!

CHRISTINE
Order your fine horses!
Be with them at the door!

RAOUL
And soon you'll be beside me!

CHRISTINE
You'll guard me, and you'll guide me . . .

Woke up today feeling rather indifferent. Actually, it's more like numbness I feel. I guess that only means I'm making progress. Rushed down to meet Kevin, my personal gym trainer, for yet another gym session. He almost killed me with all those abs workouts... but I like the aftermath feeling. Though my abs sort of hurt after the gym session, I can feel it's much tighter. I reckon it to be like being in a painful break-up aftermath... No pain, no gain. No hurt, no lessons learnt... you know, that sort of thing...


Decided to go for breakfast with Kevin since I haven't had time for breakfast before gym. We headed down town and sat down for some delicious Subway sandwiches. Don't know why but I realized my appetite has greatly improved these past few days. Kevin says I need to bulk up and I agree with him. I may have nice killer abs but I will never look as good without killer chest. Oh my God... look at me go... sound so himbo sia...


Breakfast with Kevin became lunch and lunch became movie. In between, Kevin and I were just spilling out love stories to one another. Talking to him had been a good break-up therapy for me. Listening to his own love story only strengthened my faith that someone better is indeed out there waiting for me. It's possible to have a long lasting relationship...


Johnson guest-starred in today's blog episode for awhile. He was so sweet to meet me in town just to pass me my Christmas present. I felt guilty that I didn't buy him anything this year. Shall mentally make a note to add him in my annual Christmas gift list next year. Apparently, Johnson knew Kevin as well through clubbing. Such a small, small world we live in....


After watching that plotless, stupid Korean movie, Woman Is The Future of Man, I left Kevin to meet up with Ah Law and Edric for a little shopping. Ah Law had to leave earlier than expected but Roy joined shortly to make up the numbers again. And so for the next two hours, we three himbotic stooges just sat at Spinelli's and people watched. It's really fun looking at people... excellent break-up therapy!!!


At the end of the day, my favourite Filipino maid friend, Anders Maria Antonio, my favourite Thai maid friend, Charapon Pansopa Liting, and my favourite not-here-not-there-don't-know-from-where maid Dex joined us. Too bad I had to leave early if not my mum and sir scold. Oh well, this Sunday can always go Lucky Plaza to hang out or have picnic at the garden...  

Met up with the people from the Musical Incubation Program (MIP) yesterday and I'm glad that I've found like-minded people who are passionate about doing films and musicals. Many thanks to Edric for inviting me for yesterday's mini-discussion. It was certainly a great opportunity to network with so many other talented people. And after watching "Into the Woods" yesterday at Kenneth's house, I'm very inspired to start writing my first musical. It's going to be a satire about supposed happy fairytales...

Head's gonna start cracking,
There's no time for emotion wrecking.
It's time to move on
It has to move on...

After three days of heartache and lots of crying, I have finally had enough. Although it still hurts every once in awhile when I do think of you and him, life still has to move on. And thank God for friends who have been with me every step of the way.

Although I really want to forget you, your shadow lingers at every corner.
I dream of you every night. Why oh why must you do this to me?
Do you really love him?
Can he really make you happy?